This is a belated year-end summary. A lot happened in 2022, and I didn't want to record or summarize it. But recently, after practicing Zen meditation, I started to realize that I need to learn to accept the unexpected and accept my imperfections, so I decided to leave something behind.
1. Work#
2022 was a crucial year after switching to a new role. The biggest feeling is that I never expected to grow so quickly. Not only did I gain my own understanding in the field of product, but I also became proficient in handling tasks. Moreover, I started to exert my influence in the team and became the project leader in the last quarter.
Looking back at myself when I first joined, time flew by. At one point, I doubted whether I was suitable for this industry, but luckily, I found the joy of being in it early on and started to pass on my experiences and ideas to new team members this year.
I hope that in the coming year, I can break through myself and find more joy. In addition, I hope to coordinate the entire project team and bring good development to every partner in the project team.
2. Life#
In the past two years' summaries, I mentioned some of my aspirations:
- Buying a house in Xi'an that I can afford for living and mortgage
- Promotion and salary increase, achieving my three-year goal
- Managing my figure and successfully losing weight
- Preparing for marriage and being with the person I like
The reality proves that some aspirations need time to test.
- In 2022, due to the pandemic, I stayed at home most of the time and hardly went to see houses. Combined with the uncertainty in the real estate market, I didn't make up my mind.
- After three years of employment, I finally achieved my three-year goal of promotion and salary increase, although it was barely completed.
- In 2022, I enrolled in a fitness class for a month and successfully lost more than 10 kilograms of fat. However, I became lax afterwards and gained the weight back after the New Year.
- In 2022, I didn't enter into a romantic relationship, but luckily, at the beginning of 2023, I announced that I am together with a beautiful girl.
I hope to settle in Xi'an in the first half of 2023, and at the same time, achieve visible results in fitness before October. The most important thing is to manage this relationship well, smoothly enter into engagement and marriage plans.
3. Others#
Let me talk about something else. This year is a very memorable year for me. Apart from spending most of the time at home due to the pandemic, there was also the unforgettable incident of the sudden death of a loved one, which made me realize the impermanence of life. I have gradually become more tender and can feel the growth brought by time, as well as empathize more with elders and relatives.
In addition, the biggest change for me this year is starting to practice Zen meditation. I will start to meditate and accept my imperfections, accept the lack of feedback from others, and express myself more authentically, being the truest self.
2022/12/20 00:36 Don't rely on anyone. Our nature is inherently empty and self-sufficient. Accept your imperfections, accept the lack of feedback from others, express yourself truthfully, and be your true self.
2023/01/11 00:30 There should be no confrontation or excessive control between two people. Whether it is in life or work, please approach it with empathy and leave enough space for each other. Love is about fulfillment, not restraint.
2023/01/28 00:57 In matters of love, I lack confidence and am sensitive. Unexpectedly, I found that I am still like a child, with a pounding heart and a mind filled with all sorts of fantasies.
2023/02/01 09:48 The good side of human nature is deeply hidden. In a dream last night, I helped someone who had no one to turn to. It didn't come from a sense of justice surpassing that of a passerby in the dream, but from genuine kindness and courage.
2023/02/14 17:04 Love is a process of self-exposure. Out of self-protection, one may feel shy and afraid to express oneself. These are all normal. But please don't be afraid, bravely express yourself and be true.
I hope to become a person who "strives to understand the world and oneself, and satisfies the inner order" as I wrote in my social bio.